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Blog Love. #BlogChatter

Blog Love. #BlogChatter

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I take on the baton of Blog Love from Bushra (dewcool).

The Journey

8 years, 720 Posts, 6000 pageviwes, wordpress says 380 followers, but I highly doubt that, 400 odd comments!  It has been a long way, don’t you think? So, it all started in 2009. It seems like yesterday, though. I guess I have told this story a million times over, even though my total number of posts are just seven hundred posts, in total. Whoa, right? Not exactly. It might seem like I have come a long way. I might have written great many posts. I might be an expert at this thing. But, in all fairness, I am not. Now, I have heard people say, “Don’t belittle yourself”, “You are a great writer” (Okay, I agree they just meant ok-ok, not great), “Your English is complicated”, “I can’t write like you”, “What’s the correct pronunciation to this word?”, “You have to ask Ajay about that” – all this because of blogging. As much as I would like to brag about it, I can’t. I am more of a realist. I take into the facts and my overthinking-assumptive-and-destructive-mind into drawing conclusions. And in all possible scenarios, they are still facts.

I have been writing for quite a while, as you can tell. I started writing because I was kind of fascinated by a cousin of mine who wrote excellent stories and even more deep abstracts. They just blew my mind away. I started blog right after that as a step to improve my English, because apparently I had too many English books and still had no proper English. You shouldn’t be surprised if I told you that I still don’t know the names of the tenses and what comes where and the difference between an adjective and an adverb. But in all retrospect, I seem to have a little command over my grammar, don’t ask me how or what tense I am writing this in! You are in shock, are you not? I will give you a minute to let it sink in.

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Anyhow, in all these years, I have tried great many things in my blog, from poetry to fiction to haiku to abstract. Some were good (I mean ok-ok types) while a great many were bad, obviously! And amidst all this, I went into hibernation for a while because of that famous term we writers use : “Writer’s Block” ! I was getting no where with that. So, I decided to change pretty much everything. I kind of restarted my blog, on a completely new platform, which I had hoped to be a great success. But ain’t I the one reaching for the stars buried 5 feet deep? Having said that, some of the best things about blogging over the many years are :

a. I came across great many people, the bloggers specifically, who have become good/nice friends.
b. Though I know great many bloggers, quite a lot of whom I interact on a general basis, a great many of them are yet to visit my blog. These are some serious writers and write mind boggling posts and articles. I don’t usually get to comment because what I wanted to say is already being said, or there is nothing much I have to add to it.  So, it is understandable that these celebrity bloggers would be kind of busy cooking their awesome posts.
c. The best part in my opinion of all this is when my friends address each other with the names I gave them on my blog. That, I consider as an accomplishment, to be very fair.
d. Other accomplishments include 700+ posts, three blogs, my own domain, my own hosting, no revenue.

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So I guess it all comes down to one question, why do I write? Why do I like love writing? Why do I love my blog? Ofcourse, I love my blog however bad my writing is. As a matter of fact, every blogger here can reciprocate the same about their blog. It is our own personal space with a passion for writing, where we create stories, have stories to be shared to the whole world;  where we want to be heard, where we want to inspire people  in our own small way. It is the diary at the end of the day, a journal of adventures, the pillow to the tears, the punching bag to our frustration and more importantly, it is the solace to the mind.

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This post is written for Blogchatter prompt #BlogLove  for Valentines’ Day. 

And, I pass on the baton of #BlogLove to Mayuri.

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Λκ, mmxvii 

Recognized.

Recognized.

Finally, I got recognized.

“What? Worst Blogger Award?” and that’s how the roasting started. I could have avoided that, if I didn’t leave that disclaimer at the end in the previous post. One of my other friend already started shouting, quite literally, after having specifically mentioned not to make a big deal out of it. In a way, I kind of knew something like this would definitely happen. And I am here, writing another one, to be roasted a day later. I already came to know about this award an hour earlier than this roasting began. And I kept silent about the another one.

There was a time when I used to make use of my excellent Photoshop skills to make the digital award, which quite frankly wasn’t as appealing as I thought it would be. But I guess, I was kind of showing off or perhaps it was a desperate attempt to get recognized. Whatever it was, it didn’t quite work. Because I am where I have started after 8 years of blogging (almost going to complete). Wait, what? 8 years? Yes, don’t get alarmed. I am pretty old when it comes to blogging, but let’s just say, I have been anonymous since no one knows me. So, this another award comes as a surprise to me. Blogger Recognition Award. So, first of all, thanks to the uber talented Ankita Anand who blogs at Creativity ✒📃😍✌ who is a great artist and an accomplished blogger. Thank you.

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As usual, the tough part. The “R-U-L-E-S”. Imagine me rolling my eyes

The Rules of the award are :

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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>a. Thank the blogger who has nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>b. Write a post to show your award.
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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>c. Briefly tell your blogging journey.
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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>d. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>e. Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award.Comment on each blog you have nominated to inform them and share the link you have created.
«Sorry, but I am going to skip this. Not because there aren’t people more deserving. But because some are just too skeptical about getting an award. I just lost the zeal to pass it on after a recent encounter. »

The Journey

8 years remember? Yes, I am glad you have a good memory, which apparently is lacking in me. So, it all started in 2009. It seems like yesterday, though. I guess I have told this story a million times over, even though my total number of posts are just seven hundred posts, in total. Whoa, right? Not exactly. It might seem like I have come a long way. I might have written great many posts. I might be an expert at this thing. But, in all fairness, I am not. Now, I have heard people say, “Don’t belittle yourself”, “You are a great writer” (Okay, I agree they just meant good, not great), “Your English is complicated”, “I can’t write like you”, “What’s the correct pronunciation to this word?”, “You have to ask Ajay about that” – all this because of blogging. As much as I would like to brag about it, I can’t. I am more of a realist. I take into the facts and my overthinking- assumptive-mind into drawing conclusions. And in all possible scenarios, I undermine myself, which is again a fact. 

So, when you ask me about my blogging journey, I have been writing for quite a while, as you can tell. I started writing because I was kind of fascinated by a cousin brother of mine who wrote excellent stories and even more deep abstracts. That just blew my mind away. I started blog right after that. And all these years, I have tried great many things, from poetry to fiction to haiku to abstract. Some were good (I mean ok-ok types) while a great many were bad, obviously. And for a while I went into hibernation for a while and then I kind of restarted my blog, on a completely new platform, which I had hoped to be a great success. But ain’t I the one reaching for the stars buried 5 feet deep? But in all retrospect, some of the best things about blogging are :

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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>a. I came across great many people, the bloggers specifically, who have become good, nice friends.
b. Though I know great many bloggers, quite a lot of whom I interact on a general basis, none of them seems to be as interested in my blog. But still, all these are some mind boggling writers.
c. The best part of all this is when my friends address each other with the names I gave them on my blog. That, I consider as an accomplishment, to be very fair.
d. Other accomplishments include 700+ posts, three blogs, my own domain, my own hosting, no revenue.

The Advice

Keep Writing. I saw two pieces in the question, so I made this very easy. First of all, however old I may be in real and in blogging-wise, I am the last person who needs to be giving any advice. But if you ask me, I would tell the same thing I keep telling people. Here’s the list again :

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p style=”text-align: justify; padding-left: 30px;”>a. Keep Writing.
b. Write not because you have to or because you promised yourself to, or because someone told you to. Writing, in itself is a feeling. Something that elates your mind to a whole new level. It is the high you get when you let your cocooned thoughts and feelings. It is an escape that lets you explore in a world surreal, that let’s other implore beyond the realms of their and your imagination.

The Nomination

I sincerely apologize for not giving any names. No, not because there aren’t anyone deserving, but because it is not received as it should be. I had a recent encounter and it left quite a sour taste. But, I assure that I will intimate all the deserving people, soon, with probably another award, either passed on or self made.

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p style=”padding-left: 30px; text-align: justify;”>P.S. : Whispers I am not as good as you think I am. I have made that clear, over and over over, haven’t I?
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I wish I were…

I wish I were…

I wish I were a dream 
An epiphany of a mystery,
Surreal, as it may be
For the protagonist I would be.

I wish I were the time,
A companion in might
A reminder in sight
Always moving, ahead.

I wish I were the spring,
Reminiscing the past mistakes
Reviving the lost phases,
Humbling new, better beginnings

I wish I were a  heartbeat,
A rhythm in sync
Drowning in the elusive harmony
Of togetherness and love

I wish I were the horizon,
Endless and mythical
Plentiful, yet much to learn
Even more to explore

I wish I were the sky
With endless dream and countless stars
An inspiration of a lifetime,
And a destiny for a few

I wish I were the ocean,
Hiding the treasures
Beneath the bed of mysteries
A enigma… to be explored.

– ak, 2016

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This post is written for BlogChatter prompt of the week : I Wish I were

P.S. I am late, a week late in posting. But I have/ had to, mostly because …umm I just had to. You ask why I was late? Actually, I had something else in mind to write for this prompt, which seemed too harsh, or too soon for people to know. Also, if you have noticed, I have written about a couple too many things I wish to be, which just means that I am very uncertain of what I want. No surprises there! What? Did you say something?

The Mindless mind.

The Mindless mind.

The mind does what it wants to do, that is, if there is one.
TGITH

I have always believed that he never had one. It has always been a hollow spot for as long as I know. But that has somehow changed. I now believe that he does have a mind and quite frankly…wait for it.. he has lost it. His mind has gone berserk. What? Why are you looking so confused? Is there something on my face? Is my hair alright? Wait, is my zipper… it’s closed, so what is it then? Why are you looking at this post as if you don’t understand a think? Are you wondering who I am and what the hell I am speaking about? And most importantly, whom am I talking about? I am not making sense, am I? Dear Sir/Madam, has the author of this blog ever made sense? And unlike him, I try to make sense, as I have tried to do in so many instances, . So, whoever I am will be revealed before the post ends. For now bear with me and do understand that the so called author has no idea what is happening here. So, let’s keep it that way, capisce? 

Anyhow, I had to make the comeback on this blog somehow. I never needed a reason, but he has cut off my internet access and is always keeping me in the shadows. He drowns himself in movie and TV marathons that always keeps me at bay because I love movies and TV shows, and that’s probably my weakness. But then like I have mentioned earlier, he has lost it. That mind of his is ruining my peace. It is always screaming for no reason, whatsoever.

The other day I was having a nice cup of coffee, enjoying the caffeine give me the high while plotting my next move for the “new” crush of mine. I almost had a good time recollecting the last encounter and then there was this screaming voice that made me jump up in my very comfortable sofa. “Hahaha, remember? That thing you wanted to forget”.  It took me a while to find the ground under my feet after an abrupt short coming, but I was still clueless. I wanted to know what just happened and the reason to this sudden outburst by his wait for it brain. Yes, I am equally surprised that there indeed was one.  “I want you to think about it a lot more!”. What the actual fuck is happening? What was this all about? What did he even do?  I was and am left with questions and more questions. “Nothing can be normal now.” Oh boy, this is going of control. I try to sleep but then I realize the empty coffee cup in my hand. Oh great, no sleep tonight and on top of that these sudden maniacal outbursts. So, I am try to think about the good encounter I was thinking of earlier but th… “Oh, you remember that happened the other day”… oh, for god’s sake, leave me the hell alone, please. “You screwed up, and there is nothing you could do about it!” 

Music. Yes, music, why didn’t I think of this earlier? I quickly grab my headphones and put on the loud music, just to shoo this aberration. “Oh Music! Good try, a very good one indeed. But it keeps the outside noise away, not my voice! You are so screwed”. Oh man. What is the problem with this guy?  “Think about that, just think about it more”. I try to look away and  at anything that might distract. I just look at random stuff but …“Does this remind you of it?”..even if there is no relation. Movies. Well well well, I should have thought this earlier. I am usually so engrossed in movies that I can’t even tell if there was a 10 point Richter earthquake, so this should definitely do the trick. And it did. “Movies, yay! Something that I can’t let anyone bother or disturb. But I promise that I will begin my ritual a second after the movie ends”, his stupid mind went as a disclaimer to the movie. The movie gets over and a second later…“You know you didn’t nothing wrong, but still I will not let you forget”. What is wrong with this guy’s mind? I just want to get out of here. Unfortunately I am stuck here, but atleast leave me alone! “Okay, I have tortured you enough! I give you a 5 second recess, and then we will begin again!”, “I want you to think about it a lot more!” “You have made a mistake and now you have to deal with it!”

I had no choice but to give up. I just can’t handle any more of this senseless debacle. This wasn’t going anywhere or helping anyone either. “You really think you can forget it? You really think I would let you forget it? I know there was nothing wrong that you did, may be a little, but I will haunt you with that forever. Ha ha ha”.  And just when I was about to lose my temper and all, “Oh wait, now, you can’t even write, because you will be thinking about that”. I wanted to disagree and tell it to shut the hell up and reassure this piece of useless mind that it can’t affect the writing. No, never. It just laughed and laughed, taunting me.

So, I took over. I had to. For two reasons :
a. I have taken too much time away from writing.
b. The CEO of this blog is battling with that useless mind of his.
c. I just wanted to let this out and may be I could listen music in peace, watch things and not let them remind of whatever that needs reminding.
d. Did I say two reasons? I am weak at maths. Was never about to find that x, ever. “Did it help? Did you think it was that easy to let one of you do whatever you please?” Oh Jesus ducking Christ.

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Who am I?

You are kidding, right? Are you still stuck at this question? But since you have come this far, that would only mean that you really wanted to know. So, I am obliged to say who I am. I used to go by the name, “The Guy in the Hat”. Who the hell is that?, I could hear you scream at the top of your voice in your head. Exactly. I am the voice in the head, the actual voice that doesn’t come out much, that always tells what’s the right thing to do, but the mind always counter attacks. The voice that is always there during the stupid meetings cursing under the breath and always guiding and motivating to do the right thing, and yet the voice that is discarded without even listening properly. Dude, I am the voice in the head and I can hear you questioning the name. Well, I didn’t have any physical form, did I? So, I needed to represent myself somehow, and hence I choose an avatar. Unfortunately, they stopped the franchise that used to let me play around with my creative skills of creating  narrative around my avatar and the “CEO” of the blog.

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Until later,
– The Guy in the Hat.

Blogging Goals 2017.

Blogging Goals 2017.

Writing has been a part of my life. I will admit, I am not a great writer, or even a good writer. I just write, whenever and whatever. Please note the “whatever” part, because that’s what is 90% of the posts.  This guy is close to 700 posts and how many do you think he will point out as the best. I am glad some people do drop by and read. I am grateful to them. And I am eternally grateful to the people who believe that I am a good writer. The irony is that my friends, the people I work with believe that I am good at it. This reminds me of the recent episode where my dear colleague, more of a friend, asked me to join the essay writing competition. I was kind of hesitant (And we thought he was good at writing, didn’t we?) for reasons unknown, wait, there was one reason I keep telling myself that I don’t work under pressure and writing comes naturally to me and hence such external forces such as contests and topics and prompts and essay writings competitions fail to influence my creative side of writing. These are all lies I tell myself to somehow validate myself for not being able to write the way I want to write.

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I remember when I was unaware of writing and was introduced to blogging, I drove inspiration from one person who clearly blew my mind. I was made to believe that I was good at English somehow. I didn’t fare well in the English exams, mostly with Aptitude, err, what’s it called?…with grammar and comprehensive and all that stuff?, but I was part of the English study group in my high school which was consisted of top few members who fared in the surprise test that was conducted and I had just the passing score while others had almost double mine. But it did make me feel like I was good at English, which, please back me up, I am not. Thank you, you all agree too. A year later I participated in a writing competition, because you know “I was great at English” and the topic was given on the spot. Now, since I was good at making stuff up, which I had been doing in the exams, where I extract key words from the question and form some sentences, which never make any sense, but somehow bring it close to a 5 mark or 10 mark answer. What I knew didn’t matter, how long I wrote mattered! I used the same concept here, but then again I felt I was more comfortable at writing without preparing for what I need to write. On the spot was my forte. Even when I had a great thought. I didn’t want to drag that thought any further, because if I did that, I won’t be able to remember that whole thing and would definitely fail at reconstructing the awesome essay I wrote in my mind while commuting or sitting in the class. So, I just tried to remember the topic I wanted to write on. And over the years, that has changed so much – my writing and my take on writing.

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8 years, almost. That long I have been writing, blogs and dairy and whatnot. Now, we might be wondering that eight years is a pretty long time and probably this guy is a veteran in blogging. But lol, he don’t know shit about it. I have come a long way, blogging wise and writing wise  (Ahem what writing wise? It is much worse than you started with!).  But I am still not there where I wish I want to see myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing, but over the years instead of improving I kind of got side tracked. I may blame it on some or the other thing, but the main culprit of all mishap is I and I alone. So, I have come up with a resolution, a resolution for improving myself and my blogging.

a. Fiction- Stories, Flash Fiction, Micro Fiction, all sorts: I have always been fascinated with the stories people weave. I mean how, how do they even do it!! I am just spellbound at everyone who write fiction. You see I have tried writing fiction and I have this habit of detailing things. I can imagine things to an extent but beyond that, I gave this lame excuses such as “I haven’t seen that”, “I haven’t experienced that”, “I don’t know how it feels”. The basic idea of a write is to create the unreal, like all I mention in these excuses.

b. eBook : I want to write a eBook, mostly on the above genre. I have always wanted to write one. It need so much dedication and patience and commitment that I can’t even begin to explain. And that is why I want to write atleast one eBook. Now, one of my BlogBuddy members advised to give realistic numbers. Hence one eBook, with a common specification of 50000 words, the NaNoWriMo standard.

c. Drag people, to blogging : I have time and again informed, advised and pleaded(yes, I have done this as well) people to write. I understand that writing is not easy, it’s not easy for me either, but somehow I got drawn to it. Each of us have the knack for writing and I believe that with proper motivation, we can bring out the writer in all of us. Hence, I want atleast one person to start up a blog and write.

d. Challenges and Contests : I wish and hope to participate in all blogging challenges. And about contests, I know I am never going to win, but I still want to give my best and hope to win something.

e. Experience : I want people to enjoy what they see before they even read. I want to improve my outlook and the user interface. So, I will try to make it advertisement-free, easy on the eyes and smooth navigation, on all devices.

f. Photography : I have another blog, a photography blog. I have a domain for it, I have everything set up, but no posts at all in it. Probably, I will pick it up, improve and share not just the photos, but the story behind it, if there one or else create one.

g. Travel Blogging : I don’t go to many places, but the one or two new places I visit, I don’t mention about that in the blog. I may post the photos on Instagram, but that’s it. I would like to re-experience it in my blog, so I want to share my travel experience.

h. Enhance : Last, and the most important one- revamp my writing. I know I have a unique way of writing, that it shoes away all the people( I know you all are nodding your heads, don’t you dare lie now). Keeping that in mind, I would like to attract people rather than keeping then to wonder “what the hell am I even reading?”. I know, I bring that kind of response because I write mostly abstract, trying to hide the actual intention between the lines and end up messing it up completely. So, a changeover in the writing style is a much needed makeover.

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A special thanks to Blogchatter for an advance notice asking bloggers to set the goal in advance ( a month in advance) and also it’s Blogbuddy initiative, I get to meet some amazing bloggers and be a part of the group. 

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NaBloPoMo November 2016

I am participating in #NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month) and this is Day #29 post.



P.S. The italicized comments in between are written by me. Who am I? I am the “voice in the head”, also used to be known as “The Guy in the Hat”. I pop up anywhere and everywhere, just keep a lookout for me.
P.S.S. This ak guy has no clue about this. So let’s keep it that way, shall we?

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