Day 21 - Ranting.

Day 22, Wednesday

Rant about something. 

Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. 

(a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)

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What ticks me off? Wrong Question. The question must be like What doesn't tick you off?   And these days, the intensity of the ticking process has escalated to new heights. I have no idea what I might do when it crosses the threshold limit. Where do I even start ? 

Blind Eye : 

There are something people do not know, I repeat do not know. Well may be they know how it works and all, but they really don't know how it works. So, on occasions it so happens that we need to meet the deadlines. Now mind it, deadlines are there every time. What is not there is the accepting part! Some people nod and nod and agree and promise to meet the deadlines, not knowing exactly how to meet up. Do they have strategy? Oh, well they do. Pick some new guys and assign the work. That's how the system works. Now the ticking off part - When the statistics show that a specific thing can't be achieved in a stipulated time frame, no matter what, and still there is no change in the deadline part. What I don't understand is that which part of that statistics they didn't understand that they still want to continue. 

People with Needs: 

There are always people and there are always needs. As you might have already known I am self reserved silent guy. So, that makes sure that I don't indulge in much conversations and as a matter of fact no conversations. Now there are people whom I call friends. The thing is that they never call either. So, once in a while they need some help with something. They send a text. Yeah, seriously a text? Well, Ok fine. I try to help and make sure they get what they needed. Now, I am just some unknown guy whom they never met in their entire life. And after a little while I get a text. What the hell is wrong with people? Or is it me, for being ..erm..lets say.. nice ? 

What else does tick me off? 

a. When my laptop takes a break and stops working altogether. You have no idea what I feel like. In my mind I have smashed the laptop a hundred times over.

b. When I have to explain a simple thing over and over and over and over again. Believe me, one more time someone asks me to repeat, the aftermath won't be a pleasant one.

c. Roommates talking about something they shouldn't. I think I have talked at length about what they talk in the previous posts. Well, you don't have to go back, just get this that what they talk isn't a bit nice in any way.

Oh, Wait! I say the rant and continuing my ranting process and believe me it will be a pretty long post. Like I said, the topic should have been, what doesn't make me tick off? 

What's up ? Nothing much.

What's up ? Nothing much. 

1. It was a fairly rainy day in summer. The heat can consumed by the cold splashing droplets. I enjoy rain, as I always do. And if I didn't had any work, like go to a office or something like that, I wouldn't mind getting a little wet. And mind it, in that process of getting a little wet, I get fully drenched in the cold water. And I wouldn't take cover. I wouldn't run. I would let myself get the full of the rain. Now imagine this. A guy walking in the heavy rain slowly and carefully covering himself with a umbrella. But here the guy is me minus the umbrella. I would walk as if the rain wasn't falling at all. Yeah, I turn a few head who definitely think what an idiot I am. But I don't really give a damn about them. So, if you see some guy walking in a rain as if it is one sunny morning (minus the umbrella) , that would be me.

2. I have always liked the sling bag. But I couldn't get the one I liked for a very long time.  May be I didn't search for it much. And when I finally found one, I had no second thoughts. Before I got hold of it, I had a similar thing when I got the laptop. But that wasn't the same. This one was not as appealing as I wanted my bag to be. But still, I used it to carry my laptop here and there. So, one of my cousin who is no older than 4 years spots me with it all the time. So, whenever he sees someone with a sling bag, he would call my name. Well, anyway I still use it. And I take it to office these days, I mean since I started going to office. What I observed is that no one uses a bag like this. Oh well there are these laptop bags which look like mine but plus the laptop. So, I was thinking whether it is very odd or it is just fine. Yeah, I know. No one usually cares, but still. 

3. The office computers are dead slow. Believe me when I say dead slow, you can literally take it as dead. So, what they did was upgrade the systems from 1GB RAM to 4GB RAM.Yeah, that's cool. But the thing is that we use a client remote desktop which is literally on the other side of the world. And that connection my friend, is the dead slow part. Now, these people have deadlines to meet as does anyone.  So, when they upgraded the system, they were hoping to increase the productivity of the same. But even if anyone of us get a super-computer, the productivity can't be increased unless someone does something about the connection to the remote computer on the other side of the world. A concern is raised on the same over and over again, but you might have figured that if I am writing this, then a lot of progress is really going on about it indeed. 

4. So, I was saying in the previous posts about the deadlines, right? About that, the time is critical now. But there is a lot of inconsistency in the work that we do which is another story. Anyways, to facilitate the meeting of deadline they added a few more people doubling the already existing staff working on the same thing. First of all, I don't have a clue of what I do. Well, I know a few things, the basics that to be fairly and nothing more that. The new guys are told to sit with me and observe what I do and in the process teach them. Kill me for the questions they ask. I have never asked that many questions in my life. Now to the answering part of those questions - I don't know half, or should I say most of the questions. But what I know is that they don't know that. Lucky for me, I build up my own answers and explain them as if I also know the application backward. And what they feel is that I know almost everything. And that's what bothers me when they find out that I was staling them with concepts unknown all the way along.

5. I have been spending a lot of money on food lately. This doesn't sound strange to you? Oh! Well, the thing is that I would skip off a meal in the nights occasionally. And these days, I am failing to do that. I really don't know why! And is the food that I eat is healthy, you ask? Oh, you aren't asking? Am I asking myself? May be. So...

The Junk-Food Freak

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Catching up...

Day 19, Sunday

Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them

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a.  0 ÷ 0 | The Undefined by Keirthana

b. DЯΣΛMƧ by Wanderer

c. Supercalifragilisticsexyalidocious™  by IQ ©

d. A few words of a dumb heart by Namrata 

e. Live Your Life by Green Speck

f. Journey of Dreams by adreamygal

g. Memoirs of Me  by Me

h. Speaking My Heart by Mani Khanna

i. The Sweet Life  by Krazzy Ki

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Day 20, Monday

Get real. 

Share something you're struggling with right now.

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Right now, you ask? Well, writing for one thing. I clearly have no idea what's going on with me, but I am not at my best. I sit in front of my laptop thinking of writing some thought I got along the way. First of all, I don't even remember that thought and when I do, I don't remember the pretext of it. And then again, I don't want to write some random stuff and woe away the little follower-junta that I have. But clearly, I failed at that, I mean at writing some random stuff and that to meaningless, if I may say. I had been off lately and also as my bro says, "It seems like you are writing in a hurry". That sounds about right. But when I do get time, I just waste it looking at the ceiling of my room for long hours. 

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Day 21, Tuesday

A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives

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Wait! All my posts in the archives are my favorite. This would be a really really long post to cover then, or should I just drop a link to the whole of my blog, which you already know. You know right? Anyways, I still tried to look for one and I found many. The thing is that they are my favorites, but I can't be sure whether they would be liked by you as much as I do.

The Art of Getting By.

Poetry (Everything under this label)

Ah, man. I can't do this. I can't go through all the 400 posts or lets say post-titles. Yeah right, I should have already known my own favorites, but like I said there are many and pinpointing is a little bit difficult task. So, to simplify it, my favorite posts in my blog : 

Everything and anything in The Shaded Shadows™ !!!

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The May Challenge Bundle.

Day 14, Tuesday

Ten things that make you really happy

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Ten things that make me happy : 

1. Writing

2. Photography

3. Novels

4. Gadgets

5. Money

6. Movies

7. Jokes

8. Friends

9. Chocolates

10. You shouldn't know. 

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Day 15, Wednesday

 A Day in the life (include photos from throughout your typical day - this could be "a photo an hour" if you'd like)

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I think I already did this. Please find the following link useful.

Workaholic. 

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Day 16, Thursday

Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it.

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Ah, the topic sounded like a nice one at first. But as I dig deep into it, I started realizing, there is really a lot in life . So, it seems like I have to explain that so called lot in life difficulty. So, here is goes. The difficult part of that "lot in life" is life itself. I have heard people saying things about life ad how beautiful it is, or how can one make it so. I tried. I failed. I failed again. I withdrew the trying again notion from my mind. Now, people would fall upon me with new sayings or the old ones may be - Try and try, unless you succeed, or more like where there is a will, there is a way. 

The thing is that I am blinded and I am like the flock of sheep. I drift to where ever it might please. But at the end of the day, I realize that I have done some thing very terrible and should change my approach or anything that matters. The day ends and a new one begins and I do the exactly same thing I told myself not to do. 

Am I working on it? No. I never did. I thought I was working on it, but lets don't get dragged into assumptions and think bubbles. I never did and I am not sure I ever will. You ask me Why? I wish I knew the answer, Seriously! 

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Day 17, Friday

A favorite photo of yourself and why

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I actually laughed looking at this topic. I felt if I were to upload a favorite photo of myself, I don't think the server space dedicated to me could hold that much content. Well, anyways I am turning up with the most common & recent photo, common in the sense I just generalized this photo almost everywhere.

Why? Because it gave me a new name. I have always liked hats. And this photo doesn't reveal much of me than it says about the hat. Okay, that hat isn't some antique thing, but doesn't it look like that a photo of a hat with some guy in the middle or in this case below it. 

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Day 18, Saturday

Tell a story from your childhood. 

Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.

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A memory from my childhood? I was like in the 3rd grade when we were playing and suddenly a guy puts a leg in front of me. I don't actually remember whether we were fighting or just playing. I don't think we were playing. I mean we were playing. Well the game must be as I hardly remember is the fighting game. I was once in a while involved in some sort of that game. The purpose behind that game is what I don't remember. But I have taken part in those fights quite often. What? Me? Fighting? Hard to believe? Welcome to reality! So, what happened was the leg and I fell. I fell on a small stone embedded in the soft lawn which was totally unseen. I fell on my head hitting that hard stone. Fortunately, my skull wasn't broken. But there was a lot of blood. Was I crying? I don't remember. I think I didn't. But then I thought if I didn't cry I wouldn't be normal for a third grader. So, I cried. Almost whole of the primary secondary pupils gathered around me while a teacher washed my wounds at the common water tap. Later I was taken to the hospital and was neatly bandaged. 

Well, let me tell you I got a very good memory power. I will come up with more. Wait, it says stories. Well then, I step down. My childhood does't have stories. It has reality.

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Give Up.

Beneath the stars, that danced

To the song of the Silent Night.

Shivered to the cold, that raved

In the long Winter Night.

I try to sing a song, 

With the verses unknown.

The song of the Silence, 

For I can speak no more. 

I try to dance to the music,

With the beats unknown.

The Music of the Soul,

For I can walk no more.

I try to love,
To the feeling unknown.
The Language of the heart,
For I can feel no more.

I ponder in the darkness,
With the destination unknown.
For answers I search,
To the questions unheard. 

And I ask myself, 
What is that I do?
Tangled in this multitude of confusion, 
To the conclusion unknown.

'Never give up, kid', They said
And neither did I.
With a little hope, 
I looked forward for a little miracle.

But, confused I am now
For the hope started fading
For the unknown still remained mysterious
And that I started giving up.

- Ajay Kontham © 2013

P.S. : I just loved the starting lines, but don't know what went wrong in the later lines. They lost the appeal that I wanted to showcase. Sigh. The title should be more apt if it consisted of something like unknown or no more, I think I used then rather too many times.